Wednesday, May 16, 2012

How I Started This Journey

Sorry that I haven't been around in a while. I am new to this whole blogging thing and even thinking that people would want to follow my story.
So for years I have talked about WLS and had previously even gone to seminars at both Duke and Wesley Long here in Greensboro but never really ended up making the move to do anything about it.

I remember that when I went to the presentation at Wesley Long that they took your weight as soon as walked in to register and I actually found that little post it note that was placed on the inside of the front cover of my folder back in 2008 (I think). At the time I was 458 pounds...not too far from what I weighed in on my initial consult with Dr. Heider back in March.

For some reason the staff and people I met at the other meetings just didn't click for me. I am the type of person to try a product or a service based on recommendations that I get from other people and in a neat kind of way that's how I came across Dr. Heider and the Center for Surgical Weight Loss at Lake Norman.

During 2011 I had two co-workers that had surgery with Dr. Heider. Over the course of a few months both of them ended up coming to me and talking to me about having WLS and what I had tried, etc. I will forever be grateful to both Ms. Betty B and Ms. Dorothy G for taking the time to share their experiences and trials with me in and convincing me to get started on becoming the me that I'm meant to be.

I have also been fortunate to have a PCP (primary care physician) who supports me in this endeavor. When I first started seeing Dr. MacKenzie and we finally had "that" discussion (you know...the one about my weight and what was I going to do about it) he mentioned to me that whenever I was ready to go down this path that he would be behind me 150%.

That being said when I had my first appointment this year in January with him I told him that I had already signed up to go to the informational meeting that was being held in February. Little did I know how quickly things would progress from there.

After attending that info session I set up an appointment that night to come in for a consult in March. I decided then to proceed with the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy and did my first weigh in with Dr. H. WHOA! 450.5 pounds! (I should note that even he didn't believe that I weighed that much, I guess I wear my weight well? *shrug*).

From that appointment I came away with a few things:
Surgery can happen in little as 6 weeks - it all depends on what my insurance requires (they required NO supervised diet but with the whole weight thing I did have to send them pictures of me over the last few years...more on that later)
I was going to HAVE to get my BMI down - he recommended doing 6 weeks of OPTIFAST (more on that later)
I was FINALLY going to get control of this weight that has ruled my life for the last 29 years and, God willing, before my 30th birthday I was going to do something about getting it going in the other direction.

So since then I have been in the "pre-operative" stage. I have been dieting (and experiencing my first STALL...DAMN YOU SCALE YOU WILL MOVE PAST 416!!!), and praying, and thinking, and preparing, and reading (OH is really a great resource), and talking, and walking, and moving, and planning, and trying to just get my life in order.

Between taking care of Mom, myself, and working I have a lot on my plate but I am determined that this is one item that I am definitely going to cross off my list before I am 30.

That's all for wrist is tired and I need to get to an early am appointment with the trainer at the gym *wink wink*

Peace, love, and VSG :o)

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Waaay overdue post :o)

This post was intended for Friday, March 23, 2012…you can see how far behind I have been! EEEK!

So a little bit about me…

I am a 29 year old woman who works from home doing corporate business travel.  Since I am using my work computer to do this blog and everything can be monitored by “big brother” I won’t name my actual employer.  I have no ill will or feelings towards them and I’m back to doing something I love (more on that later) so no complaints.

I have a Mom (who lives in VA but has been staying with me for a while since eye surgery and some other happenings), I know my father but we’ve never had a relationship (trust me the psychiatrist is going to hear all about this when we talk…I know I have issues but I am committed to working on them), and I’m a pretty funny, independent, witty, loud, crazy, silly, caring, protective, loyal, saucy, tenacious, and sensitive human being.

And I’m fat…in case you hadn’t noticed.

The picture above is of me and my cousin at a “Family” picnic last August just after it started pouring and storming and we had to scurry and squeeze under the pavilion.

The picture is important for two reasons…1) It’s a really good picture of me smiling and looking happy-like most people my size I don’t like to take pictures often and 2) I can remember what was happening right before we took the picture…my cousin and I tried to use umbrellas and stay right on the side of the pavilion…she was somewhat successful but by the time it was said and done I was completely drenched on my back because as always, my fat was sitting out like a sore thumb.

Things like this are always happening to me because of my weight…I can’t even begin to count how many experiences that I’ve had in my lifetime where my weight has affected me one way or the other but here is a short list:

Jobs…I am sure I don’t have to explain this one
Relationships/Dating…ZERO…nuff said
Theme Parks…I am just NOT trying to be embarrassed and have to do a “walk of shame” when not fitting into rides
Clothing…Bigger = MORE EXPENSIVE and less options (we’ve come a long way but I still pay a lot for nice fitting clothes)

Etc, etc. etc.

The point behind this all is to say that my weight has long affected my life in ways that have not made me very happy and I am FINALLY at a point where I am ready, willing, and able to do something about it. 

So stay tuned...there is DEFINITELY more to come!