Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Waaay overdue post :o)

This post was intended for Friday, March 23, 2012…you can see how far behind I have been! EEEK!

So a little bit about me…

I am a 29 year old woman who works from home doing corporate business travel.  Since I am using my work computer to do this blog and everything can be monitored by “big brother” I won’t name my actual employer.  I have no ill will or feelings towards them and I’m back to doing something I love (more on that later) so no complaints.

I have a Mom (who lives in VA but has been staying with me for a while since eye surgery and some other happenings), I know my father but we’ve never had a relationship (trust me the psychiatrist is going to hear all about this when we talk…I know I have issues but I am committed to working on them), and I’m a pretty funny, independent, witty, loud, crazy, silly, caring, protective, loyal, saucy, tenacious, and sensitive human being.

And I’m fat…in case you hadn’t noticed.

The picture above is of me and my cousin at a “Family” picnic last August just after it started pouring and storming and we had to scurry and squeeze under the pavilion.

The picture is important for two reasons…1) It’s a really good picture of me smiling and looking happy-like most people my size I don’t like to take pictures often and 2) I can remember what was happening right before we took the picture…my cousin and I tried to use umbrellas and stay right on the side of the pavilion…she was somewhat successful but by the time it was said and done I was completely drenched on my back because as always, my fat was sitting out like a sore thumb.

Things like this are always happening to me because of my weight…I can’t even begin to count how many experiences that I’ve had in my lifetime where my weight has affected me one way or the other but here is a short list:

Jobs…I am sure I don’t have to explain this one
Relationships/Dating…ZERO…nuff said
Theme Parks…I am just NOT trying to be embarrassed and have to do a “walk of shame” when not fitting into rides
Clothing…Bigger = MORE EXPENSIVE and less options (we’ve come a long way but I still pay a lot for nice fitting clothes)

Etc, etc. etc.

The point behind this all is to say that my weight has long affected my life in ways that have not made me very happy and I am FINALLY at a point where I am ready, willing, and able to do something about it. 

So stay tuned...there is DEFINITELY more to come!

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